Thoughts 1/7/2017

Friends, Enemies, Frenemies,

I’ve been a little backed up lately—speaking metaphorically, not literally. While settling into my new role as a member of Sudden DenouementI’ve taken on (what seems to me like) a massive amount of community involvement. I’m rather unaccustomed to it. If I’ve appeared quieter than usual, the former accounts for a large part of the reason. It’s fantastic to interact with so many like minds on a regular basis; I’m still figuring out how to assimilate this new interaction into my routine so’s I can get back to writing, which is why I’m ultimately here.

My depression is another titanic contributor. Now, I’m well-versed in the prose of depression and I don’t use that word lightly, or to describe anything other that what it actually means. Depression isn’t sadness, general malaise, or listlessness—those things are side-effects of a greater condition. Depression is a galloping lava floe—one that we all must ride when it comes for us. We have to float it, kayak it, and keep from being burnt and utterly encased until it gets to where it’s going, cools, solidifies, and allows us to dismount so we may return to our regular lives. I would say that I’m about three-fourths of the way through this one.

Well, that’s it. I just wanted to tune in with anyone who might be listening on the same frequency and apprise you of my situation. You’ve probably seen more social media links appearing on my page, which I encourage you to follow if you enjoy anything my blog has to offer. I’m working on new poems and developing fresh outlets, which I hope will manifest themselves in time.

Loving you all. I wish you the best year ever… in the entire plane of the history of mankind. I mean it.

-Nick

13 thoughts on “Thoughts 1/7/2017”

  1. I’m fortunate enough to relish in your work and other’s on SD. You add another beautiful color to this wonderful spectrum of writers. Thank you for your honesty and sharing. It’s comforting to know we aren’t alone in our challenges and they can be articulated and expressed in so many ways that help us process, heal and cope.

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    1. Thank you, Mark. The SD community has undoubtedly helped me greatly. It’s a beautiful endeavor. Every writer on the site is incredibly talented, yet has his/her own very distinct voice. It’s uncommon, to say the least.

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      1. I also did see my works as journals and instant expression on how I view a particular school of thought..
        It’s nice knowing you are true and dedicated to what makes you feel better.. keep that up Sire 😉

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  2. I agree that you can outwit your depression by positive attrition, wear it away by keeping your thoughts positive, by continuing to meet these wonderful new people and think of good things. Group activity and interaction is very important.

    In the Shurangama Sutra, there is a obstacle state associated with worry and depression:

    “……Now that you’ve heard this passage, take care not to be unhappy all the time. Do not always cry and feel melancholy. If you keep feeling worried and depressed, this demon will take possession of you. That is based half on the demon’s power and half on your own. The demon avails itself of your energy. If your thoughts are proper, there will be no problems.

    But if your thinking is improper, you will be influenced by the demon. If it tells you, “Worry,” you worry, and you become more and more worried, until you flee into the mountains, refusing to see people. And, unable to tolerate people, he may flee into the mountain forests. Lacking proper samadhi, he will certainly fall. Such a person will fall into the hells in the future.”

    -Master Hsuan Hua’s Commentary

    http://www.cttbusa.org/shurangama8/shurangama8_7.asp

    So I believe your involvement with Sudden Denouement has strong therapeutic value!

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    1. Thank you for your words of wisdom, Brian. You are always so conscientious with your comments, and that’s incredibly valuable to me.

      I take your words to heart, I hope you know that—even if it takes me a while to reply. I’ve warred with my emotional “sensitivities” on and off since adolescence, and I’m finally figuring out how to best mitigate the symptoms. You’re right about my involvement with SD. It’s been a boon to be among others who think along the same lines, much the same as our conversations have been.

      Like I said, I’m a depression pro by now. I know that I have to ride it out until it’s done. In the meantime, I’ll try not to go completely back into my shell!

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